Aviva's Blog

I didn't have that good of a week this week. The last thing I wanted to do was get out of bed and go to kung fu. But I did, and every time I left I felt better then when I got there. I wasn't 100% there all the time but at least I went. 2,045 Push Ups 2,340 Sit Ups 149 Ks 259 Hand Form 225 Weapon 90 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Astute : Having or showing an ability to accurately assess situations or people and turn this to one's advantage.

We have presented the beta form. I didn't feel scared or nevous. I was excited to show you all the forms I have been working on. I think this is because I have become more comfortable with the team compared to last year and I have a lot more experience "presenting" my kung fu. I'm proud of the progress I have had so far and I'm excited to polish it up even more. 1,470 Push Ups 1,710 Sit Ups 127 Ks 214 Hand Form 170 Weapon 40 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Occlude : Hide or obscure from prominence or view.

Every time I think about all the things I have to do for my grading year, I start thinking of all the things I still need to do and the time is just running out. It's particualary hard to think of my 5 techniques. When I see a punch coming I freeze (I know this is really bad), so every time I try to protect myself I just get really overwhelmed and go down a rabbit hole. I would keep telling myself "if every thing keeps going at this pace I am going to get no where." So every time I try to practice my 5 techniques I end up having a break down. When people try to help me I end up hurting them when I don't mean to and that just makes me spiral even more. I am so grateful for the people that stayed with me and helped me and pushed me even when I told them to go away. At this point I have 2 techniques 1,380 Push Ups 1,610 Sit Ups 109 Ks 194 Hand Form 150 Weapon 20 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Trepidation : A feeling of fear or agitation about somethin...

Why am I here? I don't really know how to answer that. I here because every day I get up and decided that I should be. I'm here because of the people around me that encourage me to keep being the best version of myself, and the best version of myself is kung fu. I here because I see what I'm geting out of it. I push myself WAY out of my comfort zone. I am forced to look at things just a bit deeper then I would have. I am here because this is where I am meant to be. 1,360 Push Ups 1,130 Sit Ups 105 Ks 204 Hand Form 130 Weapon 20 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Gruntled : Pleased, satisfied, and contented

One Good and One Bad thing about myself. It is very hard to think of my good qualities because I don't want to be arrogant. I do think I am smart - I say that because I do good at school. I work hard to understand. Pushing myself even when I dont want to. Trying to do my best. If I do not understand something I practice and ask for help. I don't think I am kind. I feel like I am sometimes, but when I'm not constently thinking about it I'm not. I'm mean even when I have the option to be nice. I think I need to focus more and be conscious about being nice. I know I can be. But a lot of the time I am not. 850 Push Ups 1,050 Sit Ups 93 Ks 164 Hand Form 60 Weapon 9 parring Favorite word I learned this week: Apoplectic : Overcome with anger; extremely indignant

I have been online for a week due to being exposed to Covid. Its very different form normal classes because I can't hear everyone or see every thing. Last class were doing a lot of "running" back and forth and kicking the bags. I did try to persitpate but I could only get 3 steps before having to go the other way. Although it sucks not being at the kwoon I have acess to so many people that are willing to help me, many in my own house. I am lucky and grateful for the people consistently helping, and the ability to still participate even when I am unable to be there. 380 Push Ups 580 Sit Ups 74 Ks 114 Hand Form 50 Weapon 9 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Morose : Sullen and ill-tempered

 I have already been postponing writing my blog this year which isn't the best start. So far I have been doing good on my personal requirements. I have been doing pretty good for the rest of my requirements excluding my push-ups and sit-ups. That's another reason i keep pushing back my blog. I keep telling myself that I don't want to blog until my numbers are better. but that just makes me push my blogging back more and more. 250 Push Ups 510 Sit Ups 53 Ks 14 Hand Form 25 Weapon 9 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Sanguine: Optimistic or positive, especially in an apparently bad or difficult situation