Overwhelmed

Every time I think about all the things I have to do for my grading year, I start thinking of all the things I still need to do and the time is just running out. It's particualary hard to think of my 5 techniques. When I see a punch coming I freeze (I know this is really bad), so every time I try to protect myself I just get really overwhelmed and go down a rabbit hole. I would keep telling myself "if every thing keeps going at this pace I am going to get no where." So every time I try to practice my 5 techniques I end up having a break down. When people try to help me I end up hurting them when I don't mean to and that just makes me spiral even more. I am so grateful for the people that stayed with me and helped me and pushed me even when I told them to go away. At this point I have 2 techniques 1,380 Push Ups 1,610 Sit Ups 109 Ks 194 Hand Form 150 Weapon 20 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Trepidation : A feeling of fear or agitation about something that may happen.

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  1. CathyManMarch 13, 2024 at 7:27 PM

    Hey! That is really awesome that you can push yourself to do it! I still blink everytime a punch is coming too, but I know it gets easier. And we all know we signed up for broken noses and bruised ribs when we started kung fu, so as long as you are learning and the person who you are practicing with is patient you got this! I am so excited that you are going for Black belt this year!! WHHOOO!!

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  2. Kayley BurkeMarch 15, 2024 at 8:54 AM

    It can feel very overwhelming but imagine if you tried to learn all of kung fu all at once you’d be overwhelmed too! But we learn kung fu by doing things one step at a time, so try to not look so far ahead to the end of the year already, just look at what you can do today

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