I AM Lucky

I have been online for a week due to being exposed to Covid. Its very different form normal classes because I can't hear everyone or see every thing. Last class were doing a lot of "running" back and forth and kicking the bags. I did try to persitpate but I could only get 3 steps before having to go the other way. Although it sucks not being at the kwoon I have acess to so many people that are willing to help me, many in my own house. I am lucky and grateful for the people consistently helping, and the ability to still participate even when I am unable to be there. 380 Push Ups 580 Sit Ups 74 Ks 114 Hand Form 50 Weapon 9 Sparring Favorite word I learned this week: Morose : Sullen and ill-tempered

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