Failure

I have failed. For the last two months I have put out a total of two blogs. When I got my black belt I felt like there was now a pressure on me to write great meaningful blogs about kung fu and I got scared. I know basically nothing. Every time I tried to write a blog I kept second guessing myself, and worrying that I would say something wrong or it wouldn't be good enough. So I didn't post anything at all. And now I have failed. I have failed you guys and I have failed myself. I feel very disconnected to the team and it is completely my fault.

I will be more consistent I promise. I'm sorry for letting this get out of hand.

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  1. YitzikMarch 23, 2025 at 10:46 AM

    When I started my work in my current company, I was given a book called failing forward.

    We all fail. The question is what we do with it. Are we learning from it and failing forward or are we failing back and doing nothing.

    You are taking steps forward by acknowledging what is happening. Keep it in the forward path.

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  2. SharidactylMarch 23, 2025 at 3:37 PM

    Love you Vi.

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  3. KhonaMarch 23, 2025 at 8:00 PM

    What they ^ said.

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