Life

Today my cat past away in my arms. To me he wasn't just a cat he was my best friend, my everything. when ever I felt down he was there. I love him with everything I have. today I haven't done much of anything. But all day I felt the need to blog. Before I started writing my blog I looked at my numbers. One of my requirement for this year was to take care of him. His death kinda makes me feel like I failed. but Once I added up the minutes that I spent cuddling/petting him I realized that just this morning I reached my goal. And isn't that beautiful in its own way. 


7,680 Push Ups 
8,910 Sit Ups 
973     Ks 
1,016 Hand Form 
1,072 Weapon 
679     Sparring 
1,717 Japanese 
12,445 Reading
4,015 Pet Jasper

My favorite word:

Cherish: Protect and care for someone lovingly.

Comments

  1. Knight of PentaclesNovember 23, 2024 at 7:45 PM

    That is beautiful and fitting. Jasper felt your love right up until the last moment and that's the best thing we can give to our loved ones.
    "Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. Grief is just love with no place to go.”
    Hugs to you, bestie

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  2. SharidactylNovember 23, 2024 at 7:45 PM

    Very beautiful, and special. May your memories of Jasper always warm your heart.

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