Improvement

    This is a topic that I have been thinking of writing for a while now. I was inspired to finally write it from what was said in class. In todays meeting there was a lot of talk about looking back on where you have came from and where you are going.
    When I think of looking back, I look back to one of my lowest points in my kung fu, and that is last summer. Last spring I had a lot going on and I had kung fu on the back burner. Once summer came suddenly I was able to go to kung fu. But for some reason I couldn't bring myself to. I didn't want to face my classmates because I was ashamed of being gone for so long. My stupid solution was to disappear for longer. That only made it worse, when I thought of kung fu I would start to panic. My parents would drag me to kung fu and I would have a panic attack in the parking lot, so most the time I didn't end up going. 
    I remember the days I still went in everyone was so kind and I made some friends. At that point something changed in my head. I started going to kung fu more and more. I started to improve, and work harder to make my dad proud of me. 
    So when I look back on where I was that's what I see. I can barely believe that so much has changed in a year. In so many ways.

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  1. Knight of PentaclesJuly 6, 2023 at 9:30 PM

    You were so quiet when we first joined the IHC team! And now look at you, flinging bean bags and dancing like a champ. I'm glad you're feeling better than you were, and I'm so happy to have you as my teammate!

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  2. Jeff BrinkerJuly 10, 2023 at 12:07 PM

    The thing about anxiety and feelings is that they are never permanent. Unfortunately we, in most cases, make permanent decisions on these fleeting feelings. I am ecstatic that you pushed yourself through and got past this. You have been a wonderful person to share this journey with.

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  3. KhonaJuly 11, 2023 at 7:21 AM

    I was super happy when you joined the team. The progress you’ve made this year has been huge already, even if you don’t see it.

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